Kitang Tanan Talawan (2022) for Reading Visual Art

 

What is fear?

 

I keep trying to define that word, only to find out it defines me.

I've been busy staring at blank faces with the most beautiful lies slipping out my tongue. I tried to defend myself because it was the last thing I can do.

 

[  ] I can't look at the person in the mirror without hating it for being real.

[  ] I can't leave my ness for I know the ill they'll tell.

[  ] I can't speak for they cover my thoughts with their lies.

[  ] I can't open my eyes and just stared, for they show me that reality is blind.

[  ] I can't get out of this waters for once I do I’ll be limitless.

 [  ] I can't accept beauty for they build me ugly.

 

My fears define my trauma but not me.

I want to feel real, thus I feel fear.

I keep these emotions, therefore I am.

I am myself.

Dili usahay masabtan ang rason pero kahadlok akong gibati

Paspas man ang mga panghitabo

Itago man ang sakit sa akong kaugalingon, di ah gihapon

kauban na ni sa atong kinabuhi, sa atong pagkatao 

pero nganong nabag-uhan man ko? siguro wa'y kahumanan 

wa'y klaro man nga mawa sa kahangturan 

pero hinay-hinay kong nga madawat 

ang akong kahadlukan

Final Output for Reading Visual Art | Theme: In _Between Produced by Awanggan Studios Starring May Aniano, Mary Louise Dery, Ruth Nicole Modina, Hazel Grace Juaton, Joan Nicole Lazaro, and Mark Jhon Villanueva Director and Cinematographer: Mark Jhon Villanueva Film Editor: May Aniano Production Design: Ruth Nicole Modina, Mary Louise Dery, and Joan Nicole Lazaro